Thursday, September 4, 2014

A Distant Ship Smoke on the Horizon

I used to rant about my feelings and frustrations on Facebook quite often.  But I eventually got the impression that no one wanted to hear me complain about pretty much anything anymore.  I think that, after years of fighting through the trials of transition so openly and publicly, people close to you just get tired of your story.

I rarely rant online anymore.  It's just not worth it.  

But I still need an avenue, and I remember how cathartic blogging would be to me.  Oh sure, it was nice having people relate to me by commenting.  And the new topics and conversations that started in the comments section were worth following as well.  But the most important thing about blogging for me was that I just felt better when I did it. 

I never considered myself to be an eloquent or prolific writer, and I'm okay with that.   But I remember the times where, after hours of soul-searching when I should have been sleeping, the confusion and chaos inside my brain was delicately laid out in some pretty damn good fashion.

There is so much that I want to say.  But I don't think I need an audience anymore to say it.  In fact, I never really needed an audience to write.  I miss it.  So I think I'll take a stab at it again.

You might not like what I have to say.  Don't read it.  That's fine.  

I'm not looking to find an audience.   I'm looking to help myself again.  If you want to come along for the ride, hop on.  

Maybe I'll be back again in a day,

or a year.

I got to meet my dear old friend Chloe Prince for lunch recently.  I'll talk more about that soon.  Here's a selfie from that day.  Ha, I said "selfie."

I freakin' invented selfies.


Shirley Anne said...

Hello Lori. I am so glad to see you alive and kicking still. I hope the world is treating you well. Best wishes

Shirley Anne x

Halle said...

You have pretty much summed it up Lori. Emails and blogs might be old school, but they serve their purpose well. Sometimes now I can't get rid of a negative thought until it gets massaged into a post where it can have a life of its own. The comments so often will help to move me into a more positive direction.

Andrew-L'autre said...

I've always enjoyed reading what you have had to say, Lori; if you need to vent, I say go ahead! My only problem is that I've barely read anything from your for a long time.

I'm happy to see a new post from you. In addition to enjoying your writings, I remember you being really nice to me in our past interactions.

Sarah Wilson said...

Welcome back Lori, I've wondered where you went to. Hope all is well in your part of the universe. :-)
SRW =!=

Jenny said...

Given my profession I feel duty bound to point out that "Selfie" was apparently coined by an Aussie sometime around 2000 :)

Welcome back.

Stace said...

Welcome back! As Shirley sais, I hope everything is good!


bashashhazbaz said...

it's awesome to see this update! love the selfie! :)

Chloe Prince said...

I was nice finally meet in person after so many years.

Sonora Sage said...

Hey, look what I miss by not using an RSS reader any more! I hope you know that I always want to hear what you have to say, even if it's a negative, moaning, rambling, incoherent rant! You know where to find me. ;-)

Anji Knutsen said...

It's great to see you back! Someone looked at a post of mine and I saw it in my stats. Just tried out your link from a comment you left way back in 2008.

Looking forward to reading more.